Dreams

Am I getting too old,
to dream the dream, I’ve dreamed,
have I wasted my life away,
am I just a star that is starting to fade,
an where do you go when the bright lights,
turned black,
where do you go, when your dreams,
have scatter and passed.

Not so long ago
I was young like you,
everything seemed real and true,
I gave my all but couldn’t pull through,
now I long for the days in the sun,
those days before life begun
those moments you can’t get back,
and dreams they never last

I’ve fucked away my time,
dreamed of happiness but only wasted it all,
looking back at my life,
I don’t know which road to take,
all I know is I made so many mistakes,
trying to be myself, trying to prove myself,
all I found was an empty place

cause dreams can pick you up,
but they leave you bleeding,
sometimes they throw you away,
when your far up your star has already started to fade,
you think you’re the brighter then the sun,
then something new  comes,
and they forget your name.

SALVATION

SALVATION

You can be my salvation,
My safest place,
When the walls are caving in,
You can help me find my way,
When I lost the fight,
An I’m barely breathing
tell me is my heart still beating .

I think you could save me,
Take me far from here,
Lead me down a better road,
Help me find myself dear,
I need you here,
I need you here.

You could be my angel,
If I should fall from grace,
you could  lift me up again,
you could make me feel whole within,
If inside a private war I am ragging,
You could clam the fire
and help me start again.

I think you could save me,
Take me far from here,
Lead me down a better road,
Help me find myself dear,
I need you here,
I need you here.

Who’s to say where this could lead,
When you’re here I see a better me,
If the demons should ever call my name,
I won’t fret or fear,
Because your love would
 keep me safe and sound
I found my salvation here.

“My Thoughts On God, Religion and personal belief'

“My Thoughts On God, Religion and personal beliefs”


I am not sure if I believe in God,
I kind of believe that God is an energy that runs through us all and teaches us who to be, I don’t believe in God though the way most Religions do. I don’t believe God hates me for being gay, or that he will send me to hell for how I love and live. This is why I am agnostic because I cannot believe in Religion, because it teaches you to be control and I refuse to be controlled or control others with my thoughts. The reason I have chosen to walk away from religion is the whole “My God is Bigger than Your God” to me that is bullshit.That mankind is feed so they can throw stones at one another and use God as an excuse for their actions. I Do believe  that we are looking through a window at God “we the whole world” that we all believe in the same God, but call him or her by many different names. Guess I’m Odd in this belief but It’s what I believe regardless.

I personal live by doing my best and being a good person the rest of that stuff doesn't interest me and doesn't play a role in my life. 

I do also believe that some kind of energy helps me write my songs and poems and that it comes from something greater than myself, rather that’s God or not. Is not important to me, I do believe in Angels, Demons, ghost and a Afterlife, heaven and hell to a point but I do not believe in putting others down in the name of God to me that is barbaric  and I refuse to partake in something so judgmental. 

Embrace Life

Loving ones self, isn't about vanity, but about embracing who and what you are, not everyone is going to be your friend, and most the time people will try to bring you down to their level of thinking, but if you can look inside yourself and know that you are beautiful, kind, and different, and don't need to be anything else, you've made it in this world. I use to care so much about what others thought of me, and sometimes I truly hurt when others didn't like me or love me, but as I have gotten older I have learned it really doesn't matter what others think because at the end of the day, I will still be who I am. and when I look in the mirror I only have to see myself. so I don't care what people say or think about me. because I am proud of myself and my small but truly great accomplishments in this life.

when I was in grade school, 1-5, I was told by a teacher I would never learn to read and that there was no way to teach me, I learned to read. and I am now in college because of that. when I was in 6th grade I did a talent show and got laugh at for singing, the thing is I never gave up singing and now I get parts in plays and I make my music, and if people like it cool, if not cool, I do what my heart tells me too do in life.

Have I had setbacks, yes but they tought me to be stronger, wiser, and humble I have learned a great deal in this life, and I may never become a superstar or even slightly famous, but I will keep on keeping on until I get over that mountain and taking everyday step by step,

I am not perfect, but I believe my imperfections make me beautiful.
I am a strong, wise man, because I came from strong wise people, my grandma Joyce, told me long ago "I Could do anything I put my mind too" and I truly believe that. I believe you can go anywhere in this world as long as you believe in you.

remember never to hate anyone, love everyone, even for the flaws, embrace the unknown in life, and keep dreaming because those dreams are important to keep alive.

Standing In My Own Way

Standing In My Own Way
written by Richard Pearce

I am sorry,
For the things I've said,
Sorry for the time I let you down,
all I ever really wanted was a place to lay my head,
but wind up hunted instead.

“Chorus”
An I’m just standing in my own way,
losing more of me each day,
living with the price that I've paid,
too afraid to move on,
and don’t know where to stay,
I’m just standing in my own way

I fear the change about to come,
Ashamed of all the things I've done,
I can’t go on blaming everyone,
for the damage that’s been done.

“Chorus”
An I’m just standing in my own way,
losing more of me day,
living with the price that I've paid,
too afraid to move on,
and don’t know where to stay,
I’m just standing in my own way

I’m sorry for not speaking from my heart,
an letting everything fall apart,
An I don’t know why I’m so afraid of change,
I’m just wanted it to stay the same

“Chorus”
An I’m just standing in my own way,
losing more of me day,
living with the price that I've paid,
too afraid to move on,
and don’t know where to stay,
I’m just standing in my own way

Here I am, in my life....

         Here I am, in my life....

     I suddenly feel like I have found myself, I know this is crazy, I know this is different from what I imagine what my life would be at 24, I guess, I found something in me, that I never really knew was there, I found that I can love deeper, and express honest and real opinions and that sometimes, you need help, sometimes it is okay to know your not the strongest in everything but knowing that you can overcome the past and embrace a new beginning. As someone new. I guess what I feel, at this moment, is that I can embrace the part of me, I thought I had lost, while, relearning who I am now.

    I guess I learned recently, that life is short, and those in our lives, need to know we care, they may make us mad, hurt us sometimes, never knowing they do.  But we must learn to forgive them, and embrace, letting go. I was so afarid for a long time, to be happy. I spent time pushing away those around me, but I now know that time has come. To move on from the past, break those chains, that doesn’t mean, saying goodbye or giving up things you love, It means, letting go, of feelings that you don’t need to hold on too.

    I guess, what I am saying here, is we get one change at live, we might as well start living it because it goes by fast, just yesterday, in my mind I was 17, going on a high choir trip, now I am 24, going to college, and learning about the real world. I find that I can do anything I put my mind too, and that It’s okay to sometimes be wrong. That means I am only human.